Finding Healing and Belonging at Project ComeBack

Spending time at PCB has been so healing for me. As someone who suffers from mental health issues (depression, anxiety, bipolar, and cptsd), my time out at the farm is truly my therapy for the week. I can honestly say that I feel a difference in myself when I miss a week on the farm vs when I go! I’m more irritable, down in the dumps, or just all around not myself. My time on the farm is my “me time” and its about the only me time I get in a week, so I definitely look forward to it. Ive always been a horse lover, but putting my time and energy into something as meaningful as PCB has been super impactful. It heals my inner child to get to care for an animal I could only dream of having / caring for and it’s an honor to get to do so. I feel apart of something bigger than myself.

Time out there is full of nature both in scenery and in sound! Connecting with nature, connecting with these animals, connecting with myself while out there, its all so healing for me. I think it’s important for humans to slow down and take time in nature; this is that time for me. I leave feeling better than i arrive (even if in desperate need of a shower). Seeing first-hand how these animals who have possibly been abused and tortured can learn to trust humans again is truly something magical. I come from a family background that’s not very good, and therefore, making it hard for me to trust easily! That being said, these horses are teaching me how to trust just as they are learning to trust.

Watching them become more comfortable with us humans as time passes is absolutely amazing and soul touching. They teach me gentleness and calmness as the smallest of things can impact them. A rustle in the wind can spook them, they can feel flies landing on them just as we can, showing us how gentle we truly need to be with them. Every time I leave the farm, I feel like I learned something and did something meaningful. And maybe that feeling of doing something meaningful is the main reason I love doing what I do here. No matter what, I am honored to be a part of PCB!