The comeback for anyone can be a hard story to tell. At first, I was very skeptical about Project ComeBack, thinking that I was too manly to let a horse help me. But, I was in a very dark state of mind and I did not know who I was.
I was lost, just about everything I had was gone, I was homeless and sleeping in my truck. October 6th, 2019 was the day I realized I needed help. I woke up on a stretcher with my best friend crying his eyes out above me. That night I truly wanted help, and I started my venture into recovery. I realized my issue was internal, that it was psychological. I wasn’t doing these things because I wanted to, I was doing them because I had lost all hope.
I was sitting in a place I never thought I’d be, when this non profit organization came in to discuss how they help veterans. I was intrigued, but still skeptical. The next weekend me and 4 other veterans made our way to Project ComeBack in Holliston, MA. When we arrived all of the other veterans were joking around and laughing with each other while they picked out the horses they wanted to work with. But they were all nervous to work with the biggest horse, Blue.
Blue has shivers which is equivalent to Parkinson’s. I wanted to work with him, so when the time came I chose Blue as my partner. It was from there on out that he began teaching me who I was. All of the horses come from severe traumatic backgrounds, and Blue has a degenerative condition that affects his nerves.
We started working together out in a beautiful pasture and that moment I started finding myself. I realized Blue is just like me, he wants to be left alone and not be bothered, but he is big and soft and he loves his friends.
Project ComeBack is an amazing organization, throughout the 6 week program I found a friend forever. He might not speak with words, but he knows me and I know him. Now, four years later I still call Blue my best friend. Honestly, we might not see each other except once a year now that he lives in South Carolina, but recently I went down for a quick visit and he once again reminded me of loyalty and kindness and love, no matter what.
In 2019 I was homeless, I lost everything because I lost myself dealing with my own trauma. Today I want to thank Blue and Project ComeBack for saving my life. Truly, they were the help that I needed.